Tuesday, May 26, 2015

Don't Call it a Comeback

I'm sure the 21 of you that actually read my blog are wondering "Where the hell has she been". And without holding anything back, I'm going to tell you.

When I first started blogging, I had a purpose. I was in Korea and I wanted everyone to know all about my crazy experiences there. I still have that blog up and running because it is full of memories that I never want to forget. Then, I started Foodie Getting Fit because I was on a super health kick and all I thought about was getting to my perfect size. I did that. Then I gained all the weight back. Talk about debilitating. So no, I didn't want to put shit on that blog anymore. Once I moved back to the US, I really wanted to kick up my blog again, and Nairobi Nicole was born, but I gotta be honest, I am having some trouble here.

When you start writing a blog, you just want to express yourself and have your opinions heard even if its only to a few dedicated readers. but after 5 years of writing blogs and telling my business to the world, it feels like no one gives a hot damn about what I have going on. And that can make you say to hell with blogging. Truth be told, I have never put my all into a blog. The Korean one was just a matter of whatever I happened to be doing at the time. The Foodie one was just composed of my successes and struggles as someone trying to get fit. But neither of those are the summation of my interest. I no longer live overseas, and I have other things to worry about outside of my waistline. Which begs the question...

What the hell to write about?

At some point, my writing became about what I thought people wanted to hear instead of what I wanted to say. This is where I lost myself. No longer a traveler or a fitness guru, I spent so much time trying to figure out what makes my life interested now. Nothing sucks as much as finding out you are kind of boring. Not to mention the fact that I've been trying to complete 4 classes for my certification and fumbling my way through my first year back in my field. Thinking about fitness and my blog made me nauseous. I added a few here and there, but nothing like what I used to do.

It's funny because a friend of mine recently asked me what happened to my blog, and it was the first time I said the truth out loud. That I was tired of looking for things to write. Tired of trying to be relevant. Tried of caring that my subscription number was as stagnant as my weight on the scale. And to be honest, I almost thought about getting rid of it. I don't want to just talk about weight loss or travel. To be honest, I am quite interesting. I just don't have ONE niche. That was the problem. I'm a Jackie of all trades and I tried to confine my blog to one thing or another. That's impossible for someone like me. I was trying to be something I'm not.

So I am going to try life style blogging. I'm just going to talk shit about my life. Things I try. What I like and don't like. Food I cook or try. Places I go. And anything else I deem worthy. I can't focus on what other people want as a sole motivator for what I write.

So be expecting to see more of me again. More of the real, honest, sometimes potty mouth, me that those of you who have been following me for a while remember.



My life and the random selfies I take for Snapchat (nairobinicole is my snapchat name). Along with my ever present food struggles.


Fitness is still an integral part of my life. But not my focus. I have other things in my life that are just as important.

I read like nobodies business. And I want to do more book reviews on here. Not professional status, just my thoughts. Likes and dislikes.

We all know how I journal my life away. This is another common place journal entry. That quote makes me happy.

Married life is real. And not something I talk about nearly enough. We struggle, but ultimately, we are pretty good at this shit. Gonna talk about date nights, fair fighting, and maybe even have some videos.


And of course, my experiences in the classroom. In the past, I haven't talked much about teaching because we have to be very guarded about what we say. I can't say how much I hate a student or how awful my jobs is some days, because that is frowned upon in the education world. Too bad my blog isn't anonymous. But I do plan on being as honest as I can without lying possible with out all the bad words as much tact as possible.


I'm back. Cue Jay Z.

What would you like to see on this blog?

2 comments:

  1. Bang...Boom...Pop!!! And like that, Shaina kicks down the MF doe (not door)!!! Welcome back..

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  2. I look forward to reading about your experiences and I am happy you are writing for you :D

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