Sunday, September 27, 2015

Grocery Shopping

Are you one of those people who love grocery shopping? I am. Walking up and down the aisles. Thinking about what awesomeness I can cook for the week. Fondling fruit in the most disrespectful of ways. I enjoy it all- while I'm in the store. But come Tuesday I am completely over it. I mean I'm like to hell with all the groceries, show me the take out menu! What can I eat so that I don't have to do anything. The work week completely zaps the Gordon Ramsey right out of my system.

I'm trying to combat this life. I don't like it. I promise I wish I had a personal chef. My oh my, that would be epic. Just come home to some food that's hot and ready. Side by side with a full glass of red. Alas, that is not my luck. I married for love...not money ha!

So this week I'm trying to focus on meal prep and easy quick foods. I'm also working on cutting down my meat and amping up my fruits and veg. Don't worry, I'm not going vegetarian...yet, but I would like a heavier rotation of all those yummy plant based foods. I want my hair and nails to get longer. I want my skin to clear up. Have you ever noticed how absolutely glow-ey vegetarians are? Now some of them look haggard and dry, but mostly, veggies look really good. Dewey even. I want to look dewey damnit!!

So the hubs and I made some kale for the first time. I put it in my smoothies all the time, but I had NO IDEA it was so delicious cooked! Not gonna lie, I sautéed 2 pieces of bacon before throwing the kale in. I think next time I'll see how it tastes with just the kale and a little olive oil. I couldn't believe how good it was. We had it with Shrimp and brown rice. I could eat like that all the time. And it was quick.  Think I've found a new staple!

That lighting is horrible. Its was late. My bad!!!

As a side note, in an effort to really move towards this healthier lifestyle, The hubs and I tried Kombucha today... It was absolutely terrible. Hahahahaha we hated it!

I had a video but the damn thing wont load. I thought this whole post had been deleted! I was about to go to bed and say no sir lol. It's already 9:43 pm and I have to finish my book so I can start Beastly bones! Anyway. Tata!

Have you tried Kombucha? What did you think? What about Kale?

Monday, September 14, 2015

New Goals

Watching Master Chef and Christina Ha is up there talking about winning the Helen Keller award for being the best chef ever...and being blind. Effing Blind Chef? And I'm just over here teaching scientific notation everyday. Really puts life into perspective!

Anyway. As I stated in my last post, I am currently reevaluating my entire life, including my fitness goals. I remember when I thought this was fat:

And this:

I was trying so hard to get to that next level. Not even taking the time to appreciate the level I was on. Which was the BOSS level in Super Mario brother. I was killing the game. If I do say so myself...and I do.

Ugh. Starting over is the worst thing in the world. I am truly not about that life. After being on that ridiculous prednisone and just ultimately being too depressed to really do anything, it seems like my health and fitness goals came crashing down around me in the most life shattering kind of way. And before you know it, you are in a rut, cycling bad habits back into your life because your goals are too far away to even matter anymore.

Then you're walking around looking like a sumo wrestler. Jaba the Hutt. Insert other fatties here. So it comes down to

How much do you want it?

I don't think people realize how debilitating this can be every single day. It can absolutely make you hate everything. Getting dressed used to give me such joy. Now...not so much. Everything feels too tight or too short. Clothes I used to love wearing are now just burdens in my closet. And I look at the pictures up top and I'm like "Damn, remember what it was like to just go in the closet and put clothes on with no concerns?" I want to get back to that life. Mediums and size 14 pants were everything to me. I was all about never seeing a size X- anything again.

However, life doesn't always go as planned.

Shit happens.

And sometimes you have to get back on that horse.

I haven't set real goals in such a long time so lets do it.

This weeks goals  
- workout 4 times
- 2 strength train  - heavy cardio (4+ miles this week logged) 
- 1 am workout on Thursday   

*plan meals the night before  
*log all activity and foods in fitness pal 
*log miles in daily mile  
*limit carb intake  
*Update blog with results next week
*up green tea intake  
*apple cider vinegar

BOOM!! There it is! Ok. That's it. Gotta go and watch Master Chef!!! LOL!

Thursday, September 10, 2015

My 30th Birthday Clarity

The pizza from Home Alone looks like the most delicious thing on the planet.

Aside from that, I've just turned 30. *Cue kazoos and confetti*

Overall, it was one of my most exciting. Throwing it right on in there with my 25th birthday in Korea. And while I had a small break down on the over the span of the fortnight leading up to it, I have to say, 30 has brought with it a clarity that I wasn't quite expecting.

But there must me a photo spread before the revelation!

Boodaddy and I

My best friend since birth (well since 5)

Always end up in bed running our mouths! 4 people on an air mattress

We all got tattoos!! This is boodaddies

Harry Potter For Life

The tattoo artists and the all tattoo-ees

How epic is it when 6 of your closest friends all run up in the tattoo parlor like you run that mother? We spent about 6 hours in there. Its hilarious that absolutely none of my plans came to fruition this past weekend. I'm such a huge planner, had all these things to do... DID NONE OF THEM! And it was amazing. I'm never someone who chooses to go with the flow. I was pretty surprised at myself.

Which leads to the clarity.

I don't know what happened, but when I woke up on September 1 I felt this serious sense of IDGAF. I mean, it was like nothing was important, except the few things that were actually important. And they are really limited in number.

I'll admit it. I've been depressed lately. I can't seem to get out of this funk. I thought it was just me. But apparently the husband felt that way as well. It wasn't until spending the weekend with friends and family in Atlanta did we realize that we aren't just old and depresso, it really is our surroundings. I've been more than a little miffed about the weight gain I've been going through.  Nothing feels great to wear. And this damn stomach seems to be determined to poke out more and more. But being with everyone and just having a good time outside of my house made all the difference in the world

Can you see my level of "Feeling Myself" in this picture!!!

I haven't been writing or blogging at all lately. I think its because all of my thoughts have been negative. I feel so stagnant here. Throw in the fact that there is never anything to do, anyone to see, and everyone I like is either pregnant, or never in the city... I'm pretty lonely here. Getting crazy with people who know and understand me was and epic eye opener...

I have to get the F#*@ out of here.

Maybe not for good...not just yet. But we most certainly have to get out of this city more often. Hang out. See people. Just...  It does us good. Aside from that fact that it took a full 24 hours to recover from 3 days of hard partying and little sleeping, I feel great right now.

So hubs and I are making plans to get out more. New Orleans, Florida, Charlotte, and you know we're planning on going overseas! WE have to get back to the old US, because we are losing ourselves here.

And I know I need to set aside more time for writing. It so feeds my soul when I can express myself on paper (or screen as it were). My novel needs to get some tender love and affection. My blog does as well. Let alone the countless other writing endeavors I have been talking about getting into. I think, somewhere unbeknownst to me, I have been afraid to fail...and that just wont do.

So its back to taking risks, doing things, going places, and living life. I have plenty of it left.