My knee hurts.
I went to the gym yesterday and did a series of leg work, including weighted squats, jump squats, presses and weighted lunges. And now...
My damn knee hurts.
I must have pulled, twisted, ripped, or chipped something in there because this thing is on fire. I tried to workout today and that was a bad idea. Rob and I decided to do a T-25 workout in the living room and it started out great. I figured the pain would work itself out if I stretched and exercised a bit. WRONG! I almost fell over. The pain was so out of this world that I just stopped working out.
I went to the kitchen and cried. Because all I could think was "do my knees hurt because I've gotten so f.a.t? Am I getting old?". Urgh. I'm usually not such a negative nancy, but that took the wind out of my sails a bit. Made me have some serious self doubt, and we all struggle with that demon once in a while. Even the fittest and prettiest have trouble getting over that hump.
After my little baby tantrum, I wiped my face, and decided to take a shower and get ready for our trip to Atlanta tomorrow. But before I did, I just stood there in the mirror- naked. I didn't want to continue my day with all those negative thoughts in my mind. So I just stared at myself naked, took some deep breaths, and did one of the hardest things you could do when you are feeling self conscious;
I said nice things about myself.
I started to feel better immediately, and after about 5 minutes of this seemingly simple activity, I felt like a million bucks. I've read about the benefits of positive self talk and thinking "it" into existence, but I never really gave it a serious shot.
So I decided to really take a stab at it. For the next 30 days I am going to make it my business to point out things that I love about myself. No superficial shit either. Im going to take all my negatives thoughts and turn them into positives...eventually it will all be second nature.
My plan is to start my day by looking at myself naked and taking deep calming breaths, continue to workout and eat clean (because that always makes you feel better) while taking it easy on my knee, and post my daily positive talk about myself on my instagram. I will also post those pictures here at the end of every week.
I'm excited but a little nervous. I know it sounds crazy, but I don't know if I can come up with 30 things ! And after losing my grandmother this week, I don't want to spend any more time being down on myself. When I'm 90 I want to look back with out regrets or "I wish I would have..." Well the challenge begins...now.
Want to join me?